It has been a few months since I wrote anything that was not a review. I am sure at least a few of my readers have noticed. But I have been focused on self-care you see. The new year brought a lot of big and hard things to my life. The big one being the break of my long-term power dynamic. Combined with everything else that was dragging me down, I took a huge blow to my emotional and mental…
Lately, I feel like the talk of Caregiver/Little dynamics has been on the rise. While I am no stranger to the dynamic, it is a hard one for me to read about. On the one hand, it is fully one of my kinks. Though on the other, it is a kink that I am trying to untangle from the trauma of my abuse. One that has been harder to heal from than just dominance as a whole. Due to the…
Standing in the kitchen, I watch as tea swirls in a burgundy cup. Having just added honey with a hint of sugar, I wait. As it slows I add just a bit of cream turning the dark liquid a soft tan. These few moments allow me to get a few breaths and ground myself. Though the tea isn’t for me, it is for Sir. It is one of the few rituals we have within our power dynamic that is consistent….
Every night before I go to bed, I lay there with my eyes dozing on and off to the light of my phone. My fingers slipping over the screen as I write what comes to mind. I ramble on as I let the background thoughts flow into the chat box. Once those thoughts stop moving so quickly I know that I can finally rest. Sending off my good nights before finally attempting sleep. The person who gets those late night rambles…