It has been a few months since I wrote anything that was not a review. I am sure at least a few of my readers have noticed. But I have been focused on self-care you see. The new year brought a lot of big and hard things to my life. The big one being the break of my long-term power dynamic. Combined with everything else that was dragging me down, I took a huge blow to my emotional and mental…
Words have power, something I have written about before. Taking them back and making them your own. Though sometimes there are whole phrases that take over your mind. I have recently been taking time to disavow them and make your own affirmation instead. Learning to fall in love with the things used against you. “You look like ten pounds of potatoes in a five-pound sack.” Those words ring in my ears with every piece of clothing I try on. Every…
The last few weeks have been a bit stressful, the world has been just a lot. Being at home was unexpected and led to having rest I wasn’t expecting. Leaving me to be in my head a lot. Thinking about myself, the past, and just the stuff I tend to tuck away because I have so much going on. Without the rush of my trying to balance my busy life. I have taken the time to check in with the…
Content Warning: Shaming of body and sexuality. Abusive relationships and language used during the relationship. Through the years, the relationship that I have had with my body has been a rocky one. From my childhood until now, I have struggled with my weight and looks. It is only been recently that I have been taking the leap to really start to love my body. I started to think about where it started, how it affected me, and the changes I…
Back in High School is when it started, I was okay with pictures being taken of me. So long as I never saw them. Then it changed to just never liking pictures. It was hard to look at my body. I hated it every day. Self-love was not my best skill. Eventually, I stopped taking my own pictures. It wasn’t until close to 2007 that I started to let myself take the rare selfie. Even today most of my social…
CW: There are actual pictures of damage from the fire, both my own house and the house next door in this blog post past the read more. Also, talk of PTSD and of course Trauma. Things that cause us trauma can happen at any time, we don’t really know when they are going to hit. And while it might have not been sexual trauma, it can still affect how we process and find pleasure. However taking back that pleasure afterward,…